You get to that point in your life where you feel like your going no were and you been doing the same thing over and over again for so many years and you feel like you need something new. In my case it’s work, let’s face it no one really wants to work in a boring office where there’s favourtism, gossips, drama and ass kissing to get to the top or a place where your being asked to be a machine and do your own and everyone else’s job, it can be stressful and have such an impact on your life at work and outside of work which it has been the case for me since last year November.
I’ve always said I will find something new and I will be happier and after being in the same place for a number of years I decided I needed something new but you cant leave a job without another one right? Because that would be stupid especially when one has bills to pay. My plan this year was to start a fresh and find a new job however it doesn’t always work out the way you want. Having been over worked, underappreciated, stressed out to the max the last thing I wanted to do after work is jump on my laptop and job search as well as fit in exercise and look after my pug Pablo.
But then something happened which I wont go into however it was a big change at work which I wasn’t particularly happy about and didn’t really have a say in it whatsoever. Already having personal problems at home and being over worked it was the last thing I needed, we all have those moments in life where things get too much and you crack, I mean where only human after all and especially when you keep pretending everything is okay when it’s not or when you bottle it al in.and continue to smile through it all whislt working like a robot.
So feeling more stressed then ever, I took time out, I needed to rediscover myself and find out what exactly I wanted from life. Change can sometimes be good but when your set in your ways and things are done that you don’t agree or are forced out of your comformt zone it feels like the end of the world. This time last month I was sad, angry, depressed and as I mentioned in my recent posts exercise can help with stress and depression but at the first stages of feeling this way it is the last thing you want to do.
Now a month on I have had the break I needed and realised that everything happens for a reason, good things have to come to an end in order to make room for new things. Just because a change has happened that you didnt like or you didn’t get the job you wanted or the results you were expecting it doesn’t mean it’s the end, you have to tell yourself that something else is round the corner, you can give up and be defeated or you can either try again if you want it that bad or try something new.
In my situation I didn’t want to go back to something I know was bringing me down or be associated with people that were no good for me. So now I am moving on to something bigger and better and cannot blame others for the decisions of messing me around at work or causing me stress, in fact I should be thanking them because now I am happier, I am going to start over and live my life and yes I may not of found my dream job yet but I am the creator of my destiny and you are to.
Having the break made me realise all this and instead of wasting time sulking or feeling sorry for myself I should of picked myself up and moved on, but we live and learn. I also learnt that you shouldn’t bottle things in, if your feeling stressed or going through a depressive state talk to someone because there’s nothing worse then feeling that way and being alone in this world because it makes you feel worse.
I am 31 this year and I don’t want to waste anymore time. Life is to short and I’m sure we all thought we would be some were else by now and we still standing still, this is your opportunity to make that change, don’t wait for the change to find you, don’t wait for something to happen in order to get you butt into gear, just like with exercising or eating healthy, don’t wait for those jeans to get tighter or for you to feel unfit when walking up stairs or running for the bus because you will only feel bad for it and it would be your own fault. Only you can do it, no one can do it for you.
Make that change today and do that thing that you know will make you happy.